Tuesday, July 28

Chapter 4: Transparency.



I'm drowning in the limitless sky; in the potential of not knowing what lies ahead. Cycles are funny. Especially when you find yourself in a situation you've been in before except this time your entire mindset has changed. That's where I am right now.

Five years ago I was back and forth between the Bay Area & Seattle, not knowing where my life was headed and scared to death. At the time, I was cynical of everything and everyone, couldn't imagine affording college, was working a shitty retail job, and at one point - homeless. And now I'm back on the west coast, except this time I have a Bachelor's Degree (thanks to a full ride to a great university) where I graduated top of my class, and a slew of skills up my sleeve that I know will lead to opportunity.

But I've had to learn (over and over again it seems) that things change, and nothing is permanent. When its time to leave, you just have to let shit go and keep moving.

That isn't to say I didn't experience a moment of sheer panic as I sat in a run down greyhound station with all my luggage. My mom looking at me concerned and saying she didn't know if she should leave me there. But after a moment I was okay.  Actually - I felt good.

Yes, This was familiar.

Once again I was surrounded by strangers - unsure of what could happen. I was without attachment or obligation and in that moment I felt both enormous and small. And honestly - I was completely humbled to be in that grungy little bus station.

I grabbed my journal, and wrote:
“Remind me never to feel bigger than the people I'm next to right now. Because I was never raised to feel entitled. I am exactly as they are: Black, Broke, & in Oakland. “
Traveling alone reminds me to recognize the brevity of every moment. Life is expansive and huge and I've got to recover from this tunnel vision;  from limiting myself in order to accommodate someone who was too comfortable with being average. I can't live like that. So I had to leave and follow my intuition.

and so the adventure begins ...
and "Banality" continues ...



About "Banality" / Chapter 3 >

Friday, May 1

shitty.

Sunday, March 15

Svadhyaya: Self(ie) Study


Get yourself a copy for $12

For this project, we were asked to take one selfie and create a book by manipulating the image. As I created the inital collages, I noticed themes of nature and spirituality emerging and decided to explore the theme of reconciling the “self” through nature, spirituality, and digital media. The pervasiveness of technology allows us to easily escape the present moment whenever we want. However spirituality and nature can also be forms of escapism depending on your perspective. I personally escape to nature and practices such as yoga & meditation when I need a break from technology. This isn’t to say that escapism is bad, but both spirituality and digital media encourage us to think about the questions “Who am I?” and “what is it that I'm trying to escape from and/or find?". An explanation of the title and poetry can be found on the last page of the book.

I began by creating collages using only digital tools. As the book progresses more hand drawn elements are integrated until my selfie is entirely made by me. Although I had a total of around 30 selfies, the 20+ pages were chosen because they gave continuity to the book in terms of image and poetry. During critiques a few people noted that the book felt very optimistic and positive, and I laughed because I realized that it reads almost like a personal manifesto. The theme and style of this little book are all very me at the current moment.

If you are interested it can be purchased in print for $12 here.

I definitely plan to self publish more artists books in the future. But I found this project to be a lot of fun, and learned a lot!




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